VALE's life <3

3 years anniversary

2009-09-02T23:06:00.003+08:00

BLESSED . 3 YEAR ANNIVERSARY,
LOVE STANDING STRONG .

AHLE IS A REALLY ROMANTIC GUY.
oh god . what have done to deserve such a guy like him ?

2009-08-17T13:16:00.001+08:00

ALVINA.

vivi, how are you ?
misses you loads.
your innocent smile makes my day .
but i cant see you any longer.

its been so long.
8mths since you are gone .

why did i felt that you are no longer here ?

initially i felt ur presence.
but now i cant.
have you gone into another dimension forever ?

vivi.
i know you felt my reminsce .

look at the picture i drew .
:D

my hello kitty ,
how are you ?

-i wished you were here .

2009-08-16T15:52:00.001+08:00

LOVE; WHAT IS LOVE ?

i was confused,
ignorant,
foolish .

what was i thinking ?
many questions run through my head ,
making me writhing to death .

VALE, be strong .

surfed the web as usual .
googled jolyn's name and found her previous blog .

searched her blog and guess what .

http://www.google.com.sg/search?q=site:bodohh-threalme.blogspot.com+bodohh-threalme.blogspot.com&hl=en&safe=off&rlz=1T4ADSA_enSG332SG333&start=0&sa=N&filter=0

although these are not the full posts, i can really sense how their love has advanced .

-VALE. stand strong .

no matter what, i will carry on .
hold back tears,
control emotions .
hang on, girl.

now, its not a matter of i will.
its i must .

2009-08-16T14:21:00.001+08:00

A FRESH START .

everything has a new beginning .
alex and me ;
not possible ?
well, i did it .

yesterday i went to Arena with hubby, my brother and alicson .
happy to see hubby .
^^

as i am always a curious soul,
i went forward to ask him abt many things jolyn said to him .

hilarious .
seriously .

i nv will wan to see this slut ever again .

had a heart to heart session with alicson .
lols .
its seemed to me that,
my problems kept revolving around Jolyn .

forget it .
this matter will be buried within me.

from today onwards,
on every sunday i will try to accompany alex. ^^

hubby,
no promises but i will try, alright, darling <3

seeing him later .

-my love,
i have gave u my word i will forget abt this matter ,
and i will .

we will start anew and we will hold hands till the end of time .

Forgive and forget .

2009-08-15T12:30:00.001+08:00

FORGIVE AND FORGET .

okays, the above picture is drawn by me using Paint .
the picture depits how much i missed the times with AHLE; sweet memories we had in the past .

now, i am left with 2 choices .
first , to leave him, honestly, i find it hard to forget about this incident .
secondly , to forget and forgive .

to me now , whats most important is AHLE .
so i decided to choose the second option .

AHLE , though there are unhappiness ,
i still am willing to forgive and forget .

but till one day if i left or one day till i cant forgive anymore,
i hope you can understand ,
i am having a hard time swallowing the pain .

i didnt hush a word to anyone on how upset and pain .
i wan you to remain as perfect as i have described you,
before all the recent things happened .

AHLE.
maybe its the power of love that allow be to forgive and forget .

-ily hubby .

Jolyn .

2009-08-14T10:28:00.001+08:00

THE TRUTH .

What inspired me to create a new blog is because i cried terribly last night and wished to have a source for me vent my emotions and i outgrew my diary .
AHLE lied to me over and over again over Jolyn's matter .
i initially gave up, diary. i really did .

I am disappointed . i didnt know my boyfriend is such a person .
our 3rd year anniversary is on September 02, 2009 .

known him for 4years and this was what he really was .
my impression of him had always been good , faithful, self-actualised and a great boyfriend .

but during the Olevels holidays, whilst he was working as a part timer in Taka, last year, he met a girl named Jolyn .

This girl is okay looking.
shall upload photos later .

Initially, it was Adem, alex brother lube, who likes her .
i truely dislike her at that point of time .
she is a typical flirt (now also) .

she does not like Adem, yet trying to make him like her more .
e.g. going on dates with him . =.=

story start when alex likes her.
i sensed alex's sudden change in attitude .

Last yr, aug, alex has a "best friend" and her name is jonelle.
i was angry when i saw jonelle's blog in Apr, saying how close she and alex can be .
i caught them in last yr aug too and warned jonelle and alex. but they continued, oblivious to what i said .
20days , my warning influenced them only 20days .

Shoutout in MSN, scolding her slut .
she frantically came and explain to me that she is not the third party,
but another girl is.

okays, that is when jolyn comes into the picture.
it was certainly a double blow for me.

First Jonelle, next Jolyn .

so i got into her blog and there they were scolding this spammer, who used my name to spam her .
okays, got scolded for the hell of nothing .

in anyways,
questioned alex when this started and many superficial questions,
but alex kept telling me he doesnt rmb and know.
i was irritated by his answers .

but i still sided him .
i know it isnt his fault even i didnt know what exactly happened .

for 3 months, i didnt ask him for any informations .

until ytd, i came across this intimate photo of alex and jolyn .
a shock of my life .
tears welled up so fast in my eyes till i dint look into the album any further .

is it my fault ?
i kept blaming him .
but was it my fault ?
if not why Jolyn can interfere into my relationship so easily ?

another shock came when i confronted alex .
at first he denied anything .
i was really upset and disappointed .

talked to him till 5am in the morning and realised the whole story .

they never started never stead.
they usu met on sundays (my family day) and often slack below jolyn's house .

heartbreaking to know, alex and jolyn kissed, hug and held hands.
my heart had stopped .

my faithful boyfriend. the one i kept telling everyone how fortunate i am to have him .
i am here, unappreciated once more .
but he told me he was just having a fling and doesnt know came over him .

he hated himself for doing so .

strangely, the girl whom always criticised actresses to be naive and ignorant and stupid to accept a guy who betrayed her again and again , acted even stupidly .

i am a cheap slut , an asshole.
i hate myself for not being independent .

i wished i hadnt need to lean and rely on alex .
but 3yrs of relationship.
i just cant give up .

give me strength .
i nid it desperately .

Photos .

-look at how close they are.

i hate reality .
i wished i dun have to live .